Don't Shrink, Celebrate!

I started wearing a bra in 5th grade. I was the first girl in my class to wear one. Sometimes a strap would sneak out from underneath the sundress or tank top. It always led to snickers, whispers, and the ultimate worst embarrassing questions on the playground that I wasn't prepared for or equipped to answer. I’d often ways to skip recess to avoid it all. One day in junior high I dropped my bra on the locker room floor after gym class. It had somehow fallen from my tightly held bundle of clothes on my way to the showers. One of my classmates found it and asked loudly “Who dropped their giant bra!?! I peeked out of my stall to see it was my bra suddenly being tossed around the locker room as girls laughed and jokes about the “kinds of girls wear big bras. ” I froze. Mortified. I finished dressing and stayed hidden in the stall until it was time for the next class. I went home without a bra that day.

Decades later I'd find myself wearing clothes to minimize my chest so it wouldn’t call attention to me.

I loved all the cute tube tops, spaghetti strap dresses, halters, etc. But I was super self- conscience about wearing them. Especially after some unfortunately wardrobe malfunctions with ill fitting garments.

I’d relegated anything braless or backless to the category of clothes not made for women built like me. I was still shrinking in the corner in the locker room.

Then one day I finally said F@&k all that. There is no such thing as clothing for a certain type. If I wanted to wear halters, or anything else for that matter, and I couldn’t find options that fit, then I'd make them myself. And I do. Eesa Rani is a manifestation of that promise , To celebrate this body that carries me through life , with full color and all the bling, rather than shrinking myself because I don’t fit the standard. We all deserve to live boldly, authentically, wearing whatever we damn well please. When the standard doesn’t fit, break it. Shown wearing the Eesa Rani “Festival” adjustable wrap halter. Custom made in Austin from a collage of curated reclaimed textiles hand picked in India and Pakistan. I hope you love it as much as I do.